sweet misery

our love only lasts a lifetime but diamonds last forever.


that is why i bought you diamonds.

posted by gary @ 2:40 PM

time makes a fool out of all of us.

posted by gary @ 3:43 PM

i open the door, went in and buckled up.

he looked at me with expectant eyes.


what was he expecting? my destination.

"Hi, Where you heading for?"

"take me to God."

posted by gary @ 7:27 PM

My PES Status is PES C1 L1. Which means i can do frontline duty.. and i'm excused from chin ups.. (woohoo!) and pushups..(?????). pushups are ok. haha.. but i dun mind this man.. haha..

posted by gary @ 1:47 PM

Hopeful Individuals, everyone of us,
cooped in a cage, no care nor fuss.
Shit, eat, drink and sleep.
You are me, as I am you,
identity mistrust.


You peer deep into my eyes,
as so you claim.
You sleep with my soul,
and not only mine.


You let me hold your body,
and even strip you down.
Study you carefully,
concentrating, as i frown.

Others want to share you,
I do not disagree,
for sharing you isn't a sin,
when you are so mean.

You can be dirty,
but others want to possess you.
You let others stain you,
and use you too.

Adulterous books.


-gary

posted by gary @ 9:48 PM

one by one, everyone is leaving me.

Travelling on fastcrafts, leaving for their new home, Tekong.


Zhengyang, remember our walk along Changi Beach? We saw the fastcrafts? those are the ones that will bring us one day, to our new home. one day. I still remember that walk because it was particularly fun. We walked the whole length didn't we? It still rained during our walk to the bus-stop. Thanks for that memory.


Fabian, you're going in soon. Thanks for being great company in odac and especially in ophir. We pulled through Ophir Together with our Opium Tent. Thanks to amos, who is in there already, remember abt the "mushroom can tin spill"? thanks for cleaning up. Zheng yang, u're not forgotten for your rapist motives. KK, thanks for making everyone unable to slp.


Odac, thanks for the bathing memories. Remember our screaming bath in ophir? haha.. also, the choir cheer we have? Thank you people for making life beautiful. What passed is past. Its all part of a learning journey, and we should view it as positively as possible.


Thanks to my wonderful class of 1A01. though some of you left during the second year, you're not forgotten. Thanks for the sentosa memories. thank you guys.


eddie, you've been a wonderful fren tolerating my nonsense when shu wud have fucked me and chris wouldn't have understood. You've been a valuable asset to us. Thank you for ur notes and for your utmost confidence in me. Thank you eddie.


Luke, we've been classmates since 1st 3 months. U've certainly become more vocal and funnier. But the army seemed to have changed u into someone who i dun know. God can be your salvation, i know. But, i feel wierd about it.


Shu, you've been really great. u're entering army soon.. just keep ur hypocritical mind out, or u will end up like luke.



SR isn't a nice place. but it had loads of nice people.



Thank you peepz.

posted by gary @ 4:01 PM

I haven't stopped slogging, or should i say, i haven't started resting.


its just work and more work as the days go by.


and i miss school.


After 12 years of starting school on Jan 2 or 3 or 4 whatever it be, it sure feels weird to see everyone in school uniforms again, carrying school bags, looking tired.



i actually miss school, the people that makes a school a school that is.


i miss eddie's outburst, chris's himboticness(not forgetting karsty's), shu's fucking temper, luke's difficult to understand jokes, lit class, judy tan's candies (she's in mjc now, god bless her), and the apparent divide between the nerds and the "rebels"(or so u can call it)


i dun miss miss sum though.

haha.


we've all grown up, haven't we? there is no longer any double beeps when we board a bus. We're no more kids. Its a sombreing moment, isn't it. There was no initiation rites, no customs, its seems that we were just pushed into adulthood.


and forced to kiss our childhood goodbye.


i wish, i'm still a child. lookin at this big big big big world, interpreting however i want it to be.

posted by gary @ 9:51 PM