was on the way to school when i saw a suicide case. The jump had not taken a long time as the police were still covering up the body and cordoning the area. suddenly, many thoughts came to my head.
Why does everyone gets the same birth but dies differently? Why do some die soundly in their sleep while others may go thru a painful death battling a disease but still dying in the end. why?
Is it pre-destined when we are gonna die? If it is, would god tell me when i'm going? because i have done a lot of things, haven't said a lot of things.
To Amy: I'm sorry i call u a bitch all the time. ITs in playfulness that i call u such a name, u are too nice to be a bitch.
To my brothers: I'm sorry if i didn't treat u peepz nicely, but ya ppl never failed to be there for me.... i'm so fortunate to have u guys.
To Lisany: Though u've never failed to bully me all the time and i've never failed not to entertain to ur whines... i'm sorry.
Love ya peepz loads! i really do!
pw's so fucked up that it could eat me alive.
tired. so i'm in a fucking bad mood. dun piss me off. i've benn doin pw from 7 till now. dunno till when. so when i ask u to do smth. get ur farkin ass off and do it. cos u haven done anything.
my eyebags are getting blacker... i need sleep desperately.. but i'm very busy.... haiz...
odac. did my presentation today. quite ok lar... quite happy with myself. haha... then came the problems... the sub coms all quite cock up. Primary sch enrichment dun have any info.. then cannot work.. CIP... i doin part of it.. dunno y also.. i'm not supposed to be involved. Dragonboat... shi min is all alone because her other sub com members all pang seh her... so have to help her... yes. the nightmare. ROCMOC clinic. I.E enrichment of odac and rocmoc. THE WHOLE F***ing committee just f**ked us with john pangseh-ing 2 gals. how the hell are they gonna do it? so fucking responsible ya. in the end... the 3 AOs and VP(kai kian) took over and cleaned up the mess... got a proposal in less than 3 hours... but yet to be approved.. tmr see how... Execo take over do proposal... sianz... still have to plan for the big expedition of ROCMOC-ODAC-CANOE night cycling expedition. Canoeists suggested it... we lookin into the viability of it... but sounds fun though...
went to northpoint with ena just now to but smth.. haha... hmm.. buy wat leh... haha.. ITS A PREZZIE! haha.. its very nice!
tired now... did circuit training just now... feel like slping.. but i can't!!
kena from philip tan today.. 1A1.. dunno why he keep picking on our class.... got smth important to announce.
went to sch and hung a black face... was really tired... dunno y.. my results? 2 Es 1 AO and 2 D7s... hmm... ok lar.. can promote... but fail econs for the first time... and pass geog for the first time... my gp fail overall sia... by 1 mark... sianx...
doin a presentation for cip for odacians on wed... hmmx... hope it will be ok...
tmr sian.. got chi... at LT4... the exams are coming! shucks! i'm so tired.......
my left thigh still hurts... and ena looks stunning now... and.... i dunno... i feel sad... michelle is leaving for 1A03... wanling leaving us for poly... some may get retained. i suddenly feel so much for my classmates... the last time i felt this was in sec 4.. first time i din wan to leave them and stick together instead... i love my classmates. Even though i tease them or suan them... i love them all the same... i try my best to brighten up their day if i cud not even brighten my own... run ard and plan things for them... they gave me a PERFECT bday celebration...
think i gotta sing u all the song i composed b4 some leave us... but all have to be present...
Delta Goodrem - Lost without You.
went to my grandma house... played soccer from 11 to 2.... then 1405 to 1600.... now my right thigh is having spasms of cramps... cos i nvr stretch... then my left thigh is in pain .. super pain... cos while i faked my cousin i hit the ball towards his right and i ran by his left... then he bad loser an raised his knee so as not to let me pass.. and at that time... i was accelerating at full speed lor... so i flipped... tumbled... super acrobatic act sia... then like that lar... like pulled the muscle or wat... my mum say one more injury i get from playing soccer.. she's gonna ban me from it... cos i dislocated my right shoulders 2 times from playing soccer... haha...
anyway... tmr... d day. i fear it. my greatest fear.
| The Big Five Personality Test |
| Extroverted | |||||||||||||||||| | 72% |
| Introverted | |||||| | 28% |
| Friendly | |||||||||||||| | 56% |
| Aggressive | |||||||||||| | 44% |
| Orderly | |||||||||||||| | 60% |
| Disorderly | |||||||||| | 40% |
| Relaxed | |||||||||||| | 46% |
| Emotional | |||||||||||||| | 54% |
| Intellectual | |||||||||||| | 48% |
| Practical | |||||||||||||| | 52% |
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Extroverted (E) 81.25% Introverted (I) 18.75%
Sensing (S) 55.56% Intuitive (N) 44.44%
Feeling (F) 61.76% Thinking (T) 38.24%
Judging (J) 51.85% Perceiving (P) 48.15%
I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough." - Nicholas Sparks The Notebook
glad that both of them are getting along well... so sweet to each other... i din regret lettin her go. it was right. i couldn't give her happiness. i dunno how to.. but... its over.. all e best k? he can and he will take care of u...
Wear a mask that grins and lies; it hides our cheeks and shades our eyes.
The debt we pay to human guile, with torn and broken hearts, we smile
na xie tong de ji yi.. mai zai chun de ni tu li. ----> those painful memories, bury it in the mud of spring.
super shagged le... lets tok abt yest's bbq...
hmm.. everything was fine... the whole place was like a chalet.. haha... i was workin the minute we put things down and then stopped when the bbq fire was extinguished... ya.. nice time cooking... me and chris and a competition to see who bbqs better chicken wings... well.. he won... cos he had a better fire.... i had a slow flame... and i'm not a patient man... tt's y... nvm chris... i won last time.. u won this time... we see who shall win the next! and then mich got thrown into her own pool! haha... she was very sporting though! haha... nice one!
went to ubin AGAIN today! have to make a few trips back... this project is really difficult... but got an idea of wat to do le... think we fliming the whole building process down so the school can see it or wat.. haha... vulgarities and fights not included. haha... jus had dinner... drunk red wine. woo. alcohol rules man.! relaxing!
The Seven Intelligence Areas
Linguistic: 8
Logical-Mathematical: 6
Spatial: 5
Bodily-Kinesthetic: 9
Musical: 8
Interpersonal: 8
Intrapersonal: 7
A Short Definition of your Highest Score
Bodily-Kinesthetic - the ability to use the body and tools to take effective action or to construct or repair, to build rapport to console and persuade, and to support others, to plan strategically or to critique the actions of the body, to appreciate the aesthetics of the body and to use those values to create new forms of expression. Possible vocations that use the bodily-kinesthetic intelligence include mechanic, trainer, contractor, craftsperson, tool and dye maker, coach, counselor, salesperson, sports analyst, professional athlete, dance critic, sculptor, choreographer, actor, dancer or puppeteer.
Gone to insanity and back.
i was normal.
till you came
you made me miserable.
i went insane.
You took care of me.
I thought it was real
But at the end of it all,
pain, is all i feel.
My heart never failed to break
everytime they mentioned your name
Your heart is non existent
so why did you make me insane?
The comfort of pain,
the thunderous silence,
the muted applause,
the discerning insane.
long time since i wrote a poem...
jus pen one for fun
the leaves on the old fig tree
the birds soaring above - free
The road so long and windy,
I'm here, all so lonely.
The wind blows from the east
i'm slowly turning into a beast
what u thought of me ain't real.
the mask is finally off.
the grass is green and flowery
the flowers are flowery and green
the road so long and windy
i'm here, all so lonely.
The mask is finally off,
the beast is slowly returning
what u saw wasn't real.
i'm the beast tt u made me out to be.
tt's me.
lets see.... sickness not any better it seems... after lunch today... din eat dinner... cannot eat... dunno y... then drank quite a lot... hmmm.... the heady feeling long time dun have le... quite relaxing actually..
tmr got pw.. then go buy things for bbq for michelle's bday... then bbq... haha... the chef's in for tmr! haha...
lets tok abt sat then... meeting at SR at 745... then going to ubin.. for wat? no lar... not final act... ubin is like my second home... one day can bring u all ard the island w/o a map le.. haha... class outing to Pulau Ubin! yeah! ok... back to the subject... going there to do recon work for cip.. build water piping system. will update u guys on this project... looks like going to sunburn le
today ahx.... slack lorx... 8 to 10 had pw lecture... then went to bishan and makan with chris, joanna, shu and edward... haha... ate QIU LIAN ban mian... shu insisted its nice... from china wat... wat to do...
hate it. hate the stomach ache. din eat yest nite's dinner and today's breakfast. then tried eating lunch today... jus vomitted everything out again... yucks... then dinner i jus drank soup... think i will be super thin if this goes on.. hmm... good good... i dun feel hungry at all...
anyway... going to school tmr.. trying a out new hairstyle... haha...
what u gonna read below will be a story.. quite lengthy... quite drama.. but i can relate to it... well.. sometimes.. the pangs of pain do come back... when similar situations are replayed on tv.. and when i see....... them together. but its all in the past. the pasture is always greener out there.
when u are sick, the world is topsy turvy.
the channel u show i just watched is super sad... The father was with this woman. but the woman gave birth to a son and it isn't his. but for 8 yrs.. he took care of the son. 8 yrs later, the wife ran away with the first man and they divorced. Then they fight for custody. This guy won it, but his son was injured and his bleeding cannot stop. due to some rare disease. So now... john, the adulterer comes along again and wants the child back. he is after all the child's biological father. So the story rolls on and the doctor advised him to let the child go to america and seek treatment cos if the son bleeds, john can do a transfusion anytime.(this is so fake) anyway.. the dad freaked out when the son fell down and it was just tomato ketchup but he thought it was blood. then recollections of what the doc said came flowing back.
he promised the son that he wud bring him to the space centre in houston. So he bluffs the son saying he is asking the mum and john to bring him dere and see the space centre. when in actual fact he is giving him up. The colleagues advised against it as he might not see the son again. 'let fate decide" was all he could say.
" Making him hate me is better than him missing me". nice phrase right? the dad said this to the colleagues as they said the child may be angry with the dad bluffing him.
today's lit paper 8 was fine.. wrote 3 full pieces of foolscap.. translates to 6 pages.. first time i wrote so much.. the poems were kinda erotic too...
then went to help out for odac's palette... the girls couldn't start the fire.. in the end went to the long jump pit and dug a hole there and then can start the fire... somemore i help them start it... then things got rather smoky and i choked on the fumes...there were a few times that i jus stood up and coughed away cos of the fumes... i was tearing too... tears rolled down my face... wah kao... super torturous lorx... its kinda poisonous cos its wet branches.. and it stinks.. and there i was doin my best to keep the fire going for the girls.. gender equality heh... still have a long way to go... i was in my uniform and i did field cooking? my god.
then went to jalan kayu for pratas... at ard 4... i felt sick.. so went home... vomitted and had diarrhoea... think i'm falling sick.. the after effects of exams... its always b4 exams that i become sick.. first time after exams i'm sick... so sick then i'm giddy now as i type...
tmr going to see a dermatologist for my face. and decided tt i will go running evryday... for wat? to make myself look better.. haha.. and for army lar... hmmx... gtg to toilet now... tata~~
Two tear drops were floating down the river.
One teardrop said to the other, "I'm the teardrop of a girl who
loved a man and lost him. Who are you?" ..."I'm the teardrop of the
man who regrets letting a girl go..."
The greatest regrets in our lives are the risks we did not take.
If you think something will make you. happy, GO FOR IT. Remember that we pass this way only once.
If someone comes into your life and becomes a part of you but for
some reasons he couldn't stay, don't cry too much... Just be glad
that your paths crossed and; somehow he made you happy even for a while.
Don't be too good I will miss you.
Don't be too caring, I might like you.
Don't be too Sweet, I might fall for you.
It's hard for me to love you when you won't love me after all...
MY GOD! the song "perfect" by simple plan is cool~~! the music rox and the lyrics are super meaningful! my god!
anyway... today's papers were kinda sucky.. dunno whether correct also not... then mrs. ting said our essays were kinda sucky too... sianz! then tmr got pw.. then i not going out with ys cos she got smth on.. nvm lar.. going home...
oh ya... wed and thurs i not going to school... ya... staying at home and reflect :P
*sOrRy bUt i Can'T bE pErfeCt. NoW itS jUsT tOO lAtE, i Can"t gO bAcK, I'M sOrRy i cAn't be pErfEcT...." nice right?
3 doors down - here without you is also super nice...
organic rock ruleZ!!
and layee... i'm not getting lonely...
my break-out's getting worse... going to see a doc on wed... pontaning sch i think.. haha... going to have a long break... wed not going.. thurs not going.... then fri hol... woo... long weekend! haha.. maybe thurs go lar... see how...
anyway.. went out jus now with mum.. spent money again.. muz save....
If its' real, if it's true love, then it'll always be there. You can pretend its gone, and even move on. But that love, it's still there. In the depths of your mind, sometimes a single object or song triggers it all, and your right back where you started. In the arms of the one you lost
It's hard to lose someone you love, to finally have to say goodbye. You try to be strong but the pain keeps holding on and all that you can do is cry. Deep within your heart you know it's time to move on, when the fairytale that you once knew is gone.*
all 3 quotes are courtesy of joanna. but all 3 aptly describes some of my feelings
They say there is a reason, they say that time will heal, but neither time nor reason can change the way I feel. No one knows the heartache that hides behind my smile, No one knows how many times I've broken down and cried. I want to tell you something so there won't be any doubt...You're so wonderful to think of but so hard to live without
You hug her good-bye like it's nothing...while all you want to do is hold on forever...but you let go, smile and walk away...then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same...because try as you might you can't make someone love you, sometimes you have to let them be free...and letting go, that is when love hurts the most of all.
suddenly... the image of death. the thought of it. It smells so real now. I dunno why. But death, seems to be breathing onto my face. think i need a psychologist. HELP!!!!!!
IF i do die.. i won't regret much cos i have made alot of frens. Lotsa them. From pai kias to nerds... all are my frens... come to think of it... my funeral will be quite happening hor...
i have lived through my dreams. i have already done so. I dreamt of finding someone i really love... i found her.. but what comes after that isn't important. finding her was important. at least now i know what it feels like to really love someone.
I dreamed of having u people reading this. yeap. thanks peepz!
but on a lighter note.. i wun die so early i think.. its only a if..
jus a thought of mine:
Dream a life of dreams. Work towards your dreams and live through every one of them.
Its only when you live through each dream that you realise what dreams are made of:
sweet nothings.
woah. din know that a blog could spark off so many other entires on other's blogs.... yup..
Actually, I'm not against anyone pursuing their dreams or going in search of better prospects because they have the capability in monetary terms or/and in whizz terms.
My stand is that, you should never have come here and wasted your life cos life is short. But sometimes, people take time to realise their dreams or go onto the right path. The argument and counter- argument are equivocal. depends on how you see it.
I'm thinking.." ya... so what if i have an A Level cert? Its not useful to me.." ya... it may not come in useful at all... but think of it... What's your highest qualification now... 'O' Levels. You might say.."oh.. sim wong hoo only has pri sch education... ican be like him too..." yeah rite. How many sim wong hoos are there? one in a million?
Come... lets think rationally.. complete these 2 yrs and get a cert. Use it as a back up plan. As Plan B. If you decide to do business and then realised that u are actually not really cut out for it.. hey... u still got an 'A' level cert ya... haiz... ya... i sound harsh...
But in my point, I decided to come here so this acts as a backup plan... i want to start a business or jus join the mass com industry. i intend to be a host for tv shows too... haha.. so many intentions... i wanted to be a lawyer... but dun think can le... see how lar... life is short. do what your passions point you to. And revel in the orgasm.
well... promos finishing soon... glad its all gonna be over soon.. the week flew past w/o giving me a chance to stop and think. my life's just been going cycle and another cycle. Wake up, eat, go for exams, come home, sleep, study, sleep. THe cycle's gonna stop soon... finally.
I really disdain shu the chinaman from finding himself. i dun wan to see him leave us. He has become a part of evryone. guess everyone will be sad if he really leaves us. then left me all alone le. chris has joanna. rach and dory will be trying to catch up on their sleep... me? cold and alone. but, its always better for someone to really discover himself, he can then immerse himself in the risque happiness that he has found. all the way shuming!
My life is jus what it is now, revolving around its own axis. always trying to find someone to talk to... and ya... jus tok and nth more happens... dun get the wrong idea though.
Lisany: hey u idiot...msg u never reply.. ask u wats wrong also dun wan to say... now like tt liao lar... 3 days le lor...msg u on 3 days nvr reply lor... know smth's wrong.. but u dun wan to say?!
- Protector God
(August 19 to September 21)
If you were lucky enough to be born under this sign, you can look forward to life-long romance that will never stop growing. Mr/Ms Right for you is the mystery man type who has a multi-faceted personality and will Forever be revealing new and fascinating aspects of himself/herself, Thereby continually giving you something new about himself for you to love.
slowly, slowly, evryone's thinking of drifting away.. ruiyi.. shuming.. cheryl.. who's next?
is this a sign of a once unimaginable escapade once made unimaginable bcos there was no backing out option, or is it a sign that the education system here is too pressurizing?
"Its up to ur perspective" as what my dad has always said.
gonna have geog p2 later... ya.. i dun encourage people to drift off... bcos u are here for a reason. Evrything that has a beginning has an end. live it to the end. endure all difficulties. come out as someone who can tell others..." hey.. i made it through 2 yrs of shit in there.. compared to u... u had an easy life."
contrary to what people think that overseas or poly is an easy route out.. forget abt it. Its much harder out there. U r more on ur own. THink u can make it if u r left to ur own? forget it. u can't. Let me give u a simple analogy. U r given work to the end of the week to complete. when do u start doin it? sun? yeap! that's it! u arn't cut out for it then. Their work has got to do with a lot of research and it takes a lot more effort and preseverance to complete the WORK there... and they dun chase u for work... u dun hand it in? too bad.. 0 for u... ZERO!
i know this might sound harsh. but. work hard.
no papers today... finally have a day where i can slp late... phew... so tired... now full of energy le... tmr geog p2 shud be good.. the whole of lecture 1 and 2 for population are in my head le... left leture 3 and lecture on tourism... tourism more to memorise... but can do it!! all e way!!
today is the 15th day... lookin back... falling in love with her was stupid... haha... jus hope i can know someone better now... maybe she has already appeared but i dunno? haha... dun wan lar.... after NS then tok abt this stuff.. yup..
today had my econs paper 3... muz do 3 qns... but only confident for 2 qns... shucks... really muz pass and promote man...
yesterday i din msg her!! first time! acheivement or not.. i dunno lar... haha... but till now... nvr msg her... yeah!! back to my old lifestyle!! woohoo!!
to ruiyi: hey... if u go nursing... u know ur frens will support u in every way... u know.. i can take quite alot of punches... :P
to lisany: dun know when u will read this... the letter not shocking mehx?
li yen: haha.. long time nvr tok abt u on my blog le.. happy not? study hard k? wish u all e best with u and him.. muz be committed!!
ena: yes ena.... study! dun park ur nick online! resist the temptation.
my brothers and the gay: muz promote wor!!
today had my geography paper 1 and my chi exams. Oh my... Chi compo was alrite... but the second part sucked... oh my oh my... muz pass wor.. or else pass 2 'A's? not possible le... my lit not very confident.. tmr the start of econs.. but haven't start. but nvm.. confident can finish in 2 hours... yup! i can do it. muz promote. but sometimes... if dun promote better.. can know more girls... oops.. i mean know more people.. ya... i love to widen my contacts. oh ya... got things to tell u guys tmr.. only for those who know ruiyi.. haha... her bday coming lar... need to discuss...
The white lady hovers above my head,
her hands waving at the car
the car speeds down the road.
An old lady crosses that road
she turns, looks, horror.
The look of horror on her face.
The look of horror on her face.
The white lady hovering.
The Look of horror.
Both have the same face.
I wave my hands frantically
the car just continues speeding
the driver.
the face is all to familiar.
The white lady, the look of horror, the driver
All have the same face.
The car stops suddenly.
suddenly.
A guy comes out.
His face.
Is the same as mine.
as i've already mentioned. today is the start of exams. but.. nvm.. its gonna be over soon! after tmr... then can heave a sigh of relief. well... today we walked past each other. i winked at her and she smiled. well.. its not so hard after all.. ya...
LISANY!! I dun LIKE ena!! i mean not as in tt type of like.. its friendship tt type of lIKE!! idiotZ!! haha
hmm... tmr's the start... once its starts, everythings gonna be over real soon and phew. its over. my outbreak of pimples is real bad though... mayb need to go see dermatologist or skin care ppl.. hmm.. yup... goin to slp!! tata!!
well... this is wat happened... she rejected me for another guy. some ppl know who he is.. well... i loved her.. so i told a lie saying i din like her... it was her who din like me. i totally give up on her le.. not worth it lar.. she doesn't get it.. she doesn't understand how i feel.. so.. she became my buddy... yup.. going out with her on 21... well... dun worry guys! i'm alrite!! yup!! girls! here i come!!!! woo hoo~~ single life~~~ WOO!!! yan sze... u missed me out... nvm... i wun blame u... haha.. blame him! haha... gals gals... woo!!!
3rd day.. haha... dunno why i am counting.. today's gonna be a great day... lots of soccer matches to watch...
chris has probs... so do i... so does edward... now.... i only wan a close gal fren who is really close but u dun have to worry abt treating her nice or wat... its not an obligation to treat her nice.. but its nice to have her by ur side always.. knowing she will lend u her shoulders when u need it or u will lend her urs when she needs it.
but i'm still hoping. but nvm. a close fren is better. to her. if we were the way we were on oct 7... i wud be satisfied le...
God's Letter to a Woman
When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being.
When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils.
But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man,
because your nostrils are too delicate.
I allowed a deep sleep to come over him
so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you.
Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity.
From one bone, I fashioned you.
I chose the bone that protects man's life.
I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him,
as you are meant to do.
Around this one bone, I shaped you....... I modeled you.
I created you perfectly and beautifully.
Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile.
You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart.
His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life.
The ribcage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart.
Support man as the rib cage supports the body.
You were not taken from his feet, to be under him,
nor were you taken from his head, to be above him.
You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side.
You are my perfect angel.....You are my beautiful little girl.
You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence,
and my eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart.
Your eyes...don't change them.
Your lips, how lovely when they part in prayer.
Your nose, so perfect in form.
Your hands so gentle to touch. I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep.
I've held your heart close to mine.
Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me.
Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely.
He could not See me or touch me. He could only feel me.
So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me,
I fashioned in you; my Holiness, my Strength, my Purity, my Love,
my Protection and Support.
You are special because you are an extension of me.
Man represents my image, woman my emotions.
Together, you represent the totality of God.
So man......treat woman well.
Love her, respect her, for she is fragile. In hurting her, you hurt me.
What you do to her, you do to me.
In crushing her, you only damage your own heart;
the heart of your Father, and the heart of her Father.
Woman, support man. In humility, show him the power of emotion
I have given you.
In gentle quietness, show your strength.
In love, show him that you are the rib that protects his inner self.
today was the first day of the promos... the lit paper was managable... quite confident lar... 2nd day w/o her... doin fine.. yup.. know that i shouldn't have given up on her.. now she' hurt beyond doubt... she wun wan me back... ya...
gary, when it comes to love or money, you're a Hopeless Romantic
For richer? For poorer? It doesn't matter to you because you're the Hopeless Romantic. Whether your sweetie is an oil baron or a grease monkey, it's all about until death do us part
Even if you haven't met "the one," you'll judge your soul mate by the love letters, roses, and foot massages — not the size of their bankroll. And even if their wallet is as fat as their sonnet collection, the toughest part of your relationship will be arguing over which charity to choose, who loves whom more, and who's the bigger Schmoopie. And if that diamond ring turns brass, no biggie — your love is totally not-for-profit.
if you ppl reading this still dun get it. i'm single and available! yup!
well... my internet is finally up... realised that i've never fallen in love with her... so ya... like tt lor.... she's very nice as a fren... i'm sorry for being a flirt... always been one...
really. for the past 2 days, i've been going thru a lot with her... yesterday was the first time we had a tiff... date: Oct 2 Time :1530. well... was really sad yesterday... shocking revelation from her.. hmm.. but thot everything settled le... but guess wat... today morning ok one.. till break... i gave her a letter and she gave me one. too.. i read her letter b4 she wanted it back. think she muz have been affected by the contents of the letter. ya.... but... u told me to tell u evrything... told u le.. but when i tell u.... via letter... u angry le... tell me how lar.... haiz....
well... as i am blogging here... she's inside LT1 having lessons... i have 3 free periods now... sianzz... well... promos coming.. muz settle this fast fast.. cannot drag le...
sometimes when i reflect... is it me who jus think too much? or is her behaviour unacceptable? i'm unsure. Sometimes i get really pissed off cos i feel sometimes its not right.. but on the other hand.. tt' s jus the way she is... wat can i do? i mean... even if we get together... then as shu said... will i be doubting her everything other moment... sometimes.. i think it can jus be so true.. but i have to accept her the way it is... and i am really accpeting her le... trust that she is the faithful type though she can be flirty. i dun mind. hope u will read this. u r really pissed now...
well.. my coms down... sorry.. can't blog
