Perhaps its time for some tributes to be written, in case, i don't have the chance to.
i shall attempt to write one for everyone whom i think has made a difference to my life.
Angeline :: what can i saY? after so long le.. then got together... hmmm.. 8 yrs later... really cannot predict the future. Thanks for being there for me the past 8 years and continuing to keep me company.. always yours...
Amanda ::Mum:: waking you up everyday is my task as your maria. haha... though sometimes i forget, but i'll always try to remember about calling you up in the morning. Known you last year during first intake. Had lit presentation. Had to act as a limping dog and you voluntarily lent me your school belt. those were the days mum... those were....
Lisany ::indonesian old woman:: hey top student. Saw you go through a lot last year. Never failed to amaze me with your temperamental side. Can be smiling then suddenly face black black. Remember the P.E rep course? hmm... :)
Shuming ::chinaman:: tong zhi! odacians and classmates. his art sense is really cool. has good fashion sense. knows what he is doing though his time management is really bad. when odac went thru tribulations, he was there to advise. his mature thinking and stuff like that. a great friend. someone i can depend on.
Chris ::gay:: still remember 4 brothers and a gay? hmmm... a very unstable guy who is erratic in his behaviour. Perhaps his boyish good looks have won many girls' hearts. haha.. a_g_e_a!! woo~ one star a day huh...
Ranne ::bimbo:: thought only angels play the harp? haha... you are great company! never fails to laugh at the stupidest jokes. haha... loves to sleep late and eyebags are bad!
Rachael ::sick:: poor thing. get better ok? god bless your mum and you too.
Amy ::kinkyjoker:: hey... that was your old blog name ya? hmmm... life in class has been definitely better with you noisy girl around. Same OG and same class. hmmm...
joanna ::ex-er sao:: well.. englando superlado one... haha... fun to be with...
luke ::lucius:: hmmm... dun talk to me. i can''t understand! just jokin!
Edward ::nosuchnickname:: hmm.. thanks for always kicking my ass to tell me to study.. social worker to be.. i won't forget it!
many many more and i'm bored... haha... just wanna say... if ur name is in my hp.. it means... you have made a difference to my life.
"naughty thoughts"
What is underneath those layers?
Is she wearing anything?
If yes, what colour is it?
Does it face up or down?
nb: the thoughts that run through every guy's mind... haha...
"scattered thoughts"
Everyday, we are dreaming another's dreams, living another's dream life and hoping for another's life.
We always fail to see the happiness that we now have, for we are blinded by not what is present, but by what is absent.
Who has the right to judge when all human err?
The most powerful man on earth is not one who people believes in him but one who is best in making belief.
Darn. It seems like my whole life is just about tests and more tests. And i know, i'm not the only one going thru this shit. Soon, it will be 'A's. i hope the soon comes sooner. can't wait for it to be over. dread it like totally?
And after 'A's, its gonna be NS time.
that reminds me, i'm going to sign up for my checkup soon.
Why do people seem to lead another life when they are online??
Why can i speak well but not write well?
What am i doing here?
What is it like at the other side?
"treasuring one another"
How many of us would greet our own parents good morning or even a simple hi? How many of us would give our parents a kiss when we leave house? or just a simple bye. see ya later? When was the last time you held your parents' hands when you go out or cross a road or whatsoever?
today, i learnt a lesson. Angeline, Dawn and i were walking home via the sheltered walkway in school. Before they parted, they hugged each other tightly. " they do this everyday" i thought. so i decided to ask why do they keep hugging each other?
the answer was: you never know when's the next time you can hug her again.
that set my thoughts into motion because it was so true. All of us take things for granted. Our life, friends and most importantly, our family. I read somewhere from an email that when you are an adult, you should hold the hands of a child whom you are crossing the road with. This will let the young one know how precious life is and the older one know how important life is.
Perhaps just a simple good morning to cheer up each other would be nice. Because, if we never did, we may not have a chance to do it next time. eating with friends? Do you wait for your friends to all come with their food before starting? I think you should, because, you never know when's the next time when you all can sit down together and eat together.
I try to see things positively now. Shuming's temper is becoming bad nowadays, i take it in stride. Cos i know of his late nights. Chris is getting better because he is studying more already. Edward knows what's he's into next time knowing his future, gwen becoming more supportive. Amy, having more patience. Karsten, trying to understand the concepts that baffle him. Luke, shrinks more from us nowadays and i don't know why. Doranne who is becoming less sick. Rachael who is always sick and going thru alot now but we are giving her alot of support. Cat is someone who is nice when she is in a good mood. Grace, a nerd. i mean a good nerd. i mean... a kind -hearted nerd who helps Rachael. Sheue Huah who talks very little, Grily who is become crazy. Wanling who likes to vandalize my worksheets, Janice, talking about using protection(lol)
and me, smiling always.
Graduating is not a result, it is a process.
Failure isn't the ending, it is just the beginning of your impending success.
A smile. To make someone else's day.
i'm so bloody sleepy... i wanna sleep. i want to.
"moolah speaks"
well, the saga is over now as shuming will get his money back after all. My calculations were indeed correct. The odacians will pay $5 per pax and the remaining going to the odac funds. Oh yeah. Positive!
I was totally surprised by shu's wonderful blog entry yesterday night on my entry. well, today.. i was listening to what he was telling me about his syf art idea. On the wings to soar. he's doing substance abuse. getting high on ecstasy. hmm. i think its absolutely fine.
well, odac today was definetly something fresh. climbing stairs. up the block 15 times. mind u... going up and comin down is 1 time.
The saga of the banner
I assume many would have seen the new odac banner hung up high. physically, the flag was high. In monetary terms, it was high too. Today, Mr Goh found out about the cost of the banner. He thought it $100. But we didn't tell him it was $111.80. The reason? Our treasurer lost the receipts. Anyway, Mr. Goh claimed that the banner was painted in broken english, not pleasing to the eye, without pictures, just words. He feels that the Team Excellence Banner is better than ours. Oh gosh. Does he even know aesthetic appeal? According to one of the ART student in SRJC, Marcus Liew, he claims that all the designs shu makes are absolutely beautiful and nice. I think so too.
Yeah, and he doesn't want to use the ODAC funds because he thinks it is wasteful. The cost is too high. he says he will only reimburse $30. Because that was the price Yvonne quoted us. Apparently she doesn't know how much a banner costs. So, $30 bucks? fine. I actually didn't even want the $30 from ODAC funds. Because, since you are so unwilling and he says he's not gonna use the banner for next year, fine! i don't really fuckin mind about it. THe 16th batch can pay for it man. I'm not pissed or dissed or what. just that i feel that at least he should appreciate shuming's and my efforts in painting the big banner. We squated for one damn day and cleaned up the place. And what did he say?
"its ugly."
so, i see that the previous entry had caused a big hoo-ha in school today. on who is the girl and what so... yes. i know. its shocking
"she's stupid"
"ya... i warned her about him, but she got screwed, its not my fault."
"horny guy + naive girl = good sex"
a lesson from edward:: "no matter how much you warn them about the drain in front of them, some have to fall in before they know there is a drain in front of them"
what you just saw above were different views i heard today. And yes. this's for cheryl... sex isn't for procreation only. its for pleasure too. but, priorities right? hmmm...
hanged up the banner of odac today. its red! me and shu painted it... haha... damn it shu.. if not for me... you would have died! you ingrate! haha...
i'm totally grossed out by something i read online. A 17 year old girl, still schooling, having sex with her NS serving boyfriend. i mean... isn't virginity supposed to be sacred? imagine you marry a girl who is not a virgin and it was your friend who took her virginity away? my gosh.
i mean. is getting into a relationship equals to making love? Can love be made? perhaps sex is better. The term making love maybe was just coined to provide an excuse to get your gal into your pants. If the gal consents to it, i'm not against it. If you force her and tell her its all in the name of love. what is that? treason to God?
I know i'm not in a position to talk about treason to God. But look at what happened to Adam and Eve. that apple. that red piece of thing. metaphorically, the hymen is indeed an apple.
Pre-maritial sex. What about that? I totally disapprove it. We must understand the consequences of sex. Even if its protected sex, the protection isn't fool proof. Just imagine one fine day, your gal tells you that you are pregnant. Are you gonna ask her to go for an abortion or are you gonna take responsibility? Even if you say you are gonna take responsibiity, how are you gonna go around doing it? Do you even have the capital to support a family of 2, need not say the third incoming one? The conequences are huge in magnitude. You can joke about me like me. but never go do it. you never know what you are in for.
sex is only for me and my wife.
and i'm a virgin still.
Absoultely fantabulous saturday. celebrated my dad's bday early and my sis's bf and angeline was invited for dinner. had a wonderful time today.
yes. lovely.
hmmm... blogging again.... end of hols approaching soon... havent started studying...
Dear Blog:
today was another wasted day. Went to amy's and then went home. didn't do anything at all. except 2 econs mcq. Tomorrow, odac will be painting the largest banner in srjc. we have decided all new plans for ODAC. We are going to be a prestigious CCA where we will have trials. yes. trials. for the good of odac. we want the best.
Shuming's case of rashes is getting bad. Hope he keeps to a strict organic diet and hopes he swears all poultry.
i miss u.
dear God,
today was a good day. spent some time with her as i always do and going for a meeting later. I love her and i know i do. Perhaps i haven't gone to church for a long time... but u know... i love u too..
Dear Angeline,
If u are reading this, it means you are not studying! well... nothing much... just the same old words... i miss u.
Dear ODAC,
we spent 80 bucks on cloth. thanks to shu.
Dear Me,
i love u.
Prozac Nation. Young and Depressed in America.
It starts off with " I start to get the feeling that something is really wrong. Like all the drugs put together-- the lithium, the Prozac, the desipramine, and Desyrel that i take to sleep at night-- can no longer combat whatever it is that was wrong with me in the first place. I feel like a defective model, like i came off the assembly line flat-out fucked and my parents should have taken me back for repairs before the warranty ran out."
The depression this girl goes through, her overly positive attitude of her sexual awakening and her jerk dad. It really captured my heart. Simple words, bombastic feelings. How would you feel if everytime you thought you can do it, you can get yourself out the depression bout and yet you sank further each time?
"i woke up this morning afraid i was gonna live."
ah... common tests are coming... have to CRAM!
anyone wanna join CRAM SCHOOL with me?
or fishing in the Maldives? anyone?
damn it. stupid rain. If Teng let us continue running... would have clocked a personal best for 2.4km. damn.
The sunburn on me hurts... darn
hmmmm.... so long never update... will update tonight... read alot of articles on leadership... yes.
leaders.
