sweet misery: 02/01/2004

Sunday, February 29, 2004

oh yes. i forgot to blog about this. i am attached. yes i am. to angeline.

nothing much about life.

just had karang guni mission.. tired...

tomorrow have cip.

wanna sleep. tata~

Monday, February 23, 2004

what's with the elitism thing man? cool it guys. there's nothing really big about it actually. so what if you are from a top school? is it gonna matter when you apply for a job? no. its the number of 'As' you get. Does it matter whether you are from RI or ACS? i mean. if you are from ACS... you should be able to well.. you know.. self employed.

I'm from a top 20 ranked school. yet, i ended up in a jc which is last in JC rankings. The only consolation is... Well.. to be able to study in a JC... its... the top 20% of your cohort. i take comfort in that. As i was telling shuming today... the difference between now and then is the spirit and the attitude. Boys tend to do things together, die together and stuff like that. here, you are the matyr.

What i treasure most is the culture. The neighbourhood school guys won't get it. Its priceless.

Sunday, February 22, 2004

Silent Revolution. How ironic. We went, we conquered, we cheered, we played and we left. Vertical Marathon 2004 @ Suntec City Tower 4. Lost this competition. Didn't know 43 storeys were so hard to climb up. yes. iT was tough on the mind and tough on my thighs.

1st place: CJC ODAC
2nd Place: CJC ODAC
3rd Place: NJC

Coincidentally, we actually beat the NJC team last time at ADJAM(adventure jamboree). BUt this time, they beat us. haha... CJC is always so strong. They are so fit. If only SRJC ODAC is so fit. BUt we are on the way.. aren't we odac? WE weren't disappointed. It really isn't always about winning. Its about having fun while trying to win. Ain't it so? Sprinted up 7 storeys before i started climbing slowly. Thought i was about to hyperventilate. Tomorrow still got PE. Two weeks later... maybe still have SurfNSweat. Hope my teams got in.

43 storeys? never. give up.

Saturday, February 21, 2004

so farking tired. need sleep. and that's precisely what i'm gonna do after this.

Friday, February 20, 2004

well.. road race is tomorrow.

i love ya people.

read shuming's blog and i just realised the overpiling workload. ot should i say, overdue workload? essays to complete. and i mean never ending essays. The science students always tell me how lucky i am because i don't have to go to school early in the morning to finish tutorial 19 for maths or chemistry. They tell me how much they admire the workload of arts students. ya right. the only essays they write would be either GP only or econs. WE HAVE NEVER ENDING ESSAYS! my gosh.

i totally second shu's idea to go fishing. i mean, come on. what other professions in singapore are left? No one is fighting to be a fisherman. Onward to the office for school withdrawal forms.
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Thursday, February 19, 2004

well well... today was a bad day for a lot of people. saw 4 girls cry today. tried to cheer them up. hmm smile!

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

HARLOW! so long since i last blogged.. hmm... but.. i'm not blogging at my house... its at ANGELINE's house and her connection is like 2 times faster than mine! i'm so JEALOUS!

well.. gtg. tata~ school sux. especially with angeline ard. hehe......

p.s she's reading this now, and strangling my neck and poking me. and whatever... mwhahahahahahahaahahahahahaha.

Sunday, February 15, 2004

just came back a few hours ago and went to sleep till now.

Ended camp yesterday night at 5 plus 6.. then shu, angeline, me, arif (pan wei bo lookalike J1), aaron, Lynette(pan wei bo lookalike gf) and hong an (read:shuming lookalike) went to sentosa for a night's over. We went to pastamania for dinner. I swear, the spicy chicken is really spicy. got alot of chilli padis. my gosh. sent my tastebuds sizzling. then went to take bus into sentosa. managed to catch the last monorail to palawan beach. hmmm...

we first decided to rest at the suntanning benches.. there were not enough.. so i opened up my groundsheet and slept. i haven't slept for 2 hours and decided to go sleep in the towers.. cos there no mosquitoes.. hmmm...

anyway.. about the camp. It was a really long day. even till 5 plus, the night walk havent ended. When the nightwalk ended, i thought i could sleep, but i couldn't! i had to go do sentry duty cos everyone else was asleep! darn! but never mind, i slept at 0630 when all the J1s and 2s woke up. I slept till 0700. uh ya.. 30mins of sleep. then went to prepare breakfast for them cos i was too tired to do PT. haha... the activities after that were done in a half sleeping mode, with treasure hunt around the serangoon area, food challenge and then lunch. After lunch, while waiting for the J1s to arrive, i fell asleep. For 1 and a half hours. luckily, nigel took over and mr. goh didn't wake me up. but i know, i'm gonna get it tomorrow. hmmm...

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

Shall attempt to write something that has been bugging my mind.

All things will come to light one day. And therefore i admit.

But first, we need to know the story............

THere was this girl that my first 3mths classmate supposedly likes(he liked a lot of girls), i didn't know her name, i only knew she wasn't from singapore. and her uniform is strange. i knew how she looked like and well, she looked fine. not lovely, not pretty, just fine.

So, time moved on and i forgot about her. Then came the PE rep course, i got to know her this time and i dunno when we became close and whatever, but i thought i liked her. i thought i did. and i did. but soon after the course was over, we wasn't so close as before, but we were close friends. we were. We wrote each other letters and stuff, i denied liking her. i mean, i did. but it was over. so i denied. no one knew about it. and most importantly, she was attached.

I cannot describe why i liked her. Her mood swings and all. We drifted apart eventually and zero contact nowadays. but what hurt me the most was what happened these few days.

How would it feel if your once close friend didn't even bother to smile at you when you smile at her? It feels as if i don't know her at all.

And her name, i forgot.

read edward's sunday post. my gosh. it was so reminiscent of silas marner.

i was so impressed.

If only i could write so well.. anyway.. so many things happened today.

ODAC
Mr. Goh has activated the Secondary Protoccol of Proposals where the EXCO AOs take over the project. But in this case, the AOs just complete the disappointing paperwork presented by the sub-com AOs. However, effort was put in by Nigel and other sub com members... Tomorrow's odac has become a proposal completing session for me and 3 other peepz.. sianz...

Class

For tomorrow's literature, my group will be presenting! we even rehearsed! haha.. hope its funny! We made it like a scary movie production where its all pun and tongue in cheek matters.

Sunday, February 08, 2004

another update b4 i go to sleep. yes i know. i sleep early. but what can i do? haha...

did i tell you that a lot of teachers know i wear the sex band? its amazing how far and wide the news can travel. haha..

"forget all the things i should have said."

"its raining somewhere in my head"

"i fell dead"

"that time, i should have said."

i must be sleeping.

Woo.. decided to have 2 children only. after what i've been through today. Taking 8 kids up the Bukit Timah Hill was a total NIGHTMARE. The kids were not very well behaved.. but they were of enjoyable company.

After the whole thing, we went down to Marina there and ate Hans. Zheng yang, me, angeline, yvonne, nigel, siewfong, xuan yu and shu went. After that some went to watch a movie as me, angeline, zheng yang and yvonne had plans to go home early today. So we went separate ways.

Yvonne wanted company to go and buy presents.. so we followed her around and we were playing like crazy kids.. slapping each other's foreheads.. was playing till really high. Then decided to go to Esplanade for a short sit.

but we sat and talked and talked till 1030... a short time it seemed to us.. but we talked alot. I was using a lot of analogies when i was talking.. at first i was talking to 3 of them.. then it became 2 private conversations.. angeline and zheng yang were sharing their probs while i was listening to yvonne's probs...

what was really interesting was.... All of us were quite similar in our thoughts and we could click very well... really talked alot alot... The four of us have a date... to go watch stars and talk the whole night... just us... how nice.... and after vertical marathon.. to sit back at the same place and talk... 20 yrs later.. to sit down again and talk.

i love them. i do.

Friday, February 06, 2004

Something's been bugging my mind always. ever since i got to know her. why am i so nice to her?

i don't really know. and i went in search of an answer. Yes. i liked her before.. but that was so long ago. i know it isn't the reason.

i thought i found the answer when i told myself she was the closest gal friend i have. but there is angeline too. then i said.. alright.. two of them on equal status.

I was always pondering why i tolerated with her mood swings. tried to entertain her. care for her. talk to her. Pondering. The answer was elusive as ever.

Then today, the answer dawned upon me. When i had to make a choice. As what Miss G says, "Life is governed by the choices you make." I made my choice. She asked me to stay so she could have company. but at the end of 5 mins, she was asking me to go away. Mood swing.

Angeline was waiting. The other lady wanted my company. I was torn. I couldn't please both parties. i always try to give in to their whims and wants.

But this time, i left.

Thursday, February 05, 2004

SCANDALS TIME!

SCANDAL 1:
Karsten and Rachael
We are now reporting from IT Room 3. Karsten is lying on umm... the table while rach is looking at his hair in amazement.

" why you sleep like that one? Yesterday night i couldn't sleep lor"
hmm. that spells it. doesn't it?

SCANDAL 2:
Doranne and Luke

Luke says he's gonna wring her neck if she continues to undress in front of chris. Woah. what do we have here? A love triangle?

Tuesday, February 03, 2004

alright. today was one of the best days i ever had in this year. Went to town today to shop with amanda. she is so nice to be with. I have always enjoyed her company.

yes. don't think too much. she's my mum.

yes. the roadrace noticeboard rox. thanks to shu, edward, marcus, diana and amanda. and me!

"Once you have loved, you will always love. For what's in your mind may escape but what's in your heart will remain forever."

Monday, February 02, 2004

ARGH! I HATE THEM! I HATE THEM! I HATE THEM! CAN'T GET A SINGLE FUCKING THING RIGHT! AND STILL WANT ME TO HELP THEM. don't understand why the fuck can't they just type or write out that fucking thing. Still got the bloody cheek to ask me to help them write and think. hey. bitch.

Fuck the new proposal template. so fucking inflexible! can't we just stick with the old times where it was so much easier? this is so fucking difficulT! fuck the person who came up with the template! FUCK YOU!

damn. i'm in a fucking bad mood. i'm sorry. but this's just a rant. don't bother.

Sunday, February 01, 2004

went to my grandma's house today after giving back layee, angeline and shi min their clothes. LEarnt a lot of lessons at my grandma's house.

Lesson 1:
A beer after a soccer game is bloody refreshing.

Lesson 2
Never mix your drinks. For eg. Beer with Brandy. i did it and my head is now so bloody thumping.

Lesson 3
If your head is already thumping. Stop drinking.

yes. i know. Drinking is bad. But its my recreational activity. haha...

sweet misery