i am now officially handicapped. my range of motion for my right shoulder is limited and the right shoulder has a 99% chance of recurrent dislocation. Surgery is offered. The doc has written a memo to the MO to permanently downgrade my PES. i'm already PES B. so.. that leaves me with C, E and F. I can't raise my hands up or left wards or rightwards.
and that is the culmination of all my bad karma.
posted by gary @ 7:12 PM
I love to wake up.
i hate to sleep.
Because i wake up telling myself i want to study, i will study.
But at the end of the day,
i felt that i havent achieved enough.
and i go to sleep each night with the books haunting my back.
haunting me.
posted by gary @ 6:31 PM
My Pretty Rose Tree
by William Blake
A flower was offered to me:
Such a flower as May never bore.
But I said "I've a Pretty Rose-tree",
And I passed the sweet flower o'er.
Then I went to my Pretty Rose-tree:
To tend her by day and by night.
But my Rose turn'd away with jealousy:
And her thorns were my only delight.
posted by gary @ 10:03 PM
i'm trying to escape,
i cried out loud,
and i heard thunder,
thunder in return for my blunder.
Six feet under,
it was the road to nowhere,
six feet up,
i'm as tall as a bear.
i've finally found myself,
but i'm down to one last breath.
so let me say,
hold me and don't let go,
hold me tight in your arms
i'm 6 feet from the edge and i'm falling
but maybe,
six feet ain't so far down.
posted by gary @ 9:48 PM
To anyone who understands what my post is talking about, good for you. Those that don't understand.. too bad.
The DA VINCI CODE is fiction! Who are you to tell us that we can't read it cos its against God? Cmon! we're old enough to know what is right and wrong, and if you have faith in GOD, that book wouldn't change your perception but instead entertain you only.
what stupidity.
posted by gary @ 5:09 PM
Still trying to come to terms with my dislocation. The doctor asked me to consider surgery to repair the muscles around the shoulder region. My friends in the army told me to go for the op during army days so that it will be covered by the army. But its gonna be painful i heard. and my PES is apparently downgraded to a C already.. because i went to a government hospital. Well, any career in the army is dashed now. Hi nigel, i'm same situation as you. Let us be clerks or drivers together.. haha..
and all dreams - dashed ironically, by that sleep.
posted by gary @ 9:03 PM
Time: 0111
date: 21 August
Details: 18 year old male wakes up with a dislocated shoulder. Has a history of 2 previous dislocations. Denies any trauma or any injuries.
Medication given: Something that made me go to sleep.
Action taken:dislocation reduced.
Follow up action: visit the orthopologist?
repercusssions: i dunno?
posted by gary @ 6:32 PM
What a wonderful week i had.
Had a good time celebrating my bday with my family!
Thanks to all who gave me birthday greetings!
Thanks to my darling for giving me a nice stussy shirt and a nice swensen's ice cream cake! (dun spend so much in future).
Thanks to Grace Tan Mui Gek for pinching my butt cheek.
Thanks to edward for telling us he found Grace busty and she likes to wear tight clothing to enhance the bustiness(i dun think she is)
Thanks to Grace for telling us her chest's full of fats.(10 marks for alliteration)
Thanks to Ms. Judy Tan for her chocs that made me have a sore throat. but its nice though.(not the sore throat)
Thanks to Rachael who sent me a msg today to wish me happy bday. though its late, it still counts! God bless you girl!
Thanks to Jolene who i never thought would read my blog.
Thanks to les faswee for the stunning revelation of shu.
and thanks to my parents who brought me into this world.
thankful to all my peepz!
posted by gary @ 8:23 PM
"i've given up being honest,
i just love to be right.
i try to be cool all the time,
although the past doesn't look bright.
ooh, i've been there too,
ooh.. i've done that too.
ooh.. i think she's a bitch.
and ooh.. i think so are you.
That guy's a jerk
and i don't know why.
A stolen kiss in my mouth,
i have to admit i went high.
now that he's gone,
now that he's here.
now that i'm being bitched here,
now i'm not even here.
How long can my imagination last,
how long can his sword be?
how many more lies must i tell?
before "boom",
felt, i fell.
p.s this is a poem not written in my POV but by me in another persona's POV.
posted by gary @ 9:06 PM
well, i received the notification letter to go for the military pilot test on sept 8. haha.. nigel, dun be jealous. hope i do well, though i think i can't cos i have to do math. but anyway, just give it a shot. wondering if shu got his notification too. anyone going on the same day????
posted by gary @ 1:02 PM
Memories.
Everything that starts,
has to end,
someway, somehow, someday.
It was just so yesterday, i saw my name on the screen, taking over from the 15th batch and establishing the 16th batch exco. It was so yesterday.
yet, on wednesday, i was the one presenting my odac badge to my successor, and yet, it felt like we just took over yesterday.
The AOs are very sentimental. We went out for lunch together, saying its the last lunch we are having as AOs of ODAC, last 15 mins we can call ourselves AO, and we even took photos of us eating and our empty plates. The empty plates can only show, how far we've come, how empty we'll become without ODAC, how different life on WEDNESDAYs will become. Everything changes and so will we, and as i gave my closing speech for the AOs, i knew, that was the last moment i am going to have being an AO. For me, it was a struggle to reach for my odac badge and hand it over to my successor. That badge represented so much, all the arguments we had in the exco, all the fun we had, all the singing, all the joy, sometimes tears, all were summarized by that blazing campfire, with the golden emblemed words, ODAC.
I appreciate what shu has done for odac. He nearly cried while watching his own presentation. The first time we saw it, it was funny. The second time, everyone was silent, it was the kind of atmosphere where you appreciate the photos taken and say, "i love you people."
It was tragic for the 16th batch to gel/bond together on the ophir trip. At least we did. We're going out for dinner today. We're doing things together, finally. And as i say this, my heart only cries out loud, yearn for the hot wednesdays where we will have slack PT and then comment there is nothing to do or de wei is such a loser and stuff.
No more of that.
No more odac.
The end of the 16th batch.
All that starts, ends, someway, somehow, someday.
Outdoor Activites Club.
posted by gary @ 11:25 AM
We were strangers starting out on a journey,
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through,
Now here we are
and I'm suddenly standing
At the Beginning with you
No one told me,
I was going to find you.
Unexpected what you did to my heart.
When I lost hope,
you were there to remind me,
This is the start
posted by gary @ 10:14 PM
