another saturday spent with angeline.
it was nice today. parents out of town albeit my sis ard.
Taking care of the family well.(me and sis)
i can't wait to see her on mon.(angeline)
stupid entry.
in summary: i love her.
posted by gary @ 12:42 AM
i agree with mdm kelly tan. the 20th century is indeed a century of craziness, instability and uncertainty. My new idol is e.e cummings. I read his poems and get his angst or his parodies of the 20th century. Somehow, it is written as a slap across your face yet the slap is somewhat subtle.
Paper 8 isn't really that scary after all. It has to come naturally. Right? You cacn't force it out by memorizing technical terms and hoping you can scrape through because at the end of the day, you still don't know WHY the author used such a technique, the WHAT is important but the WHy and HOW parts are more important.
GP is what i fear. Always fail. if only they can have GP as an oral paper. It would be so much easier. Writing snuffs my thoughts. Talking makes me think so much more.
And i think some people in enrichment don't even deserve to be in there at all. Just like how some people in remedial isn't supposed to be there at all. Don't they understand the psychological impacts of all these? its like labelling. just legalized labeling.
"Don't buy the lie" guys. never ever buy.
posted by gary @ 3:49 PM
went for my ns medical checkup today. the checkup is fast but too much time is wasted on waiting. haha.. lotsa funny stuff happened today with shu and i during checkup. the stupidity of shu together with the broken english of the MOs were comical.
thurs not going to sch again. have to go do the psychometric test.
posted by gary @ 8:07 PM
yes. my darling is with me now. haha.. she's staring into space and thinking about having babies with me.. haha.. just joking..
i'm not going to sch again!! haha... got medical checkup. and take photo. for my death cert next time. haha...
take care..
love ya dearie!!
posted by gary @ 2:43 PM
hey guys... i'm 80% ok le... look forward to seeing u guys... thanks for eveyrthing so far...
posted by gary @ 12:32 PM
The white snow slowly falling to the ground,
slowly, slowly,
melting, when it touches the ground.
The scene is a beauty,
but
it will end someday.
Someday, spring's gonna come,
but now, its winter all night long.
slowly, slowly,
i'm dying in the winter frost.
posted by gary @ 11:09 PM
went to another doc yesterday. cost was 76 bucks i think. took a jab to bring down the fever.
have 5 pills to swallow at a time. woo hoo~
and i'll be out for a further 2 days. that means. since friday, i've been sick. that is a grand total of 5 days of fever and throat hurting.
wanna say thanks to shu and eddie for taking care of my work in sch and to my darling angeline for sending the work to me... thanks....
posted by gary @ 11:02 AM
went to another doc yesterday. cost was 76 bucks i think. took a jab to bring down the fever.
have 5 pills to swallow at a time. woo hoo~
and i'll be out for a further 2 days. that means. since friday, i've been sick. that is a grand total of 5 days of fever and throat hurting.
posted by gary @ 11:02 AM
it has been a horrendous 3 days for me.
Friday:
Had a high fever. Went to sick bay. went home.
Slept at 8pm. Woke up at 11pm. 12am, 1am, 2am, 3 am.
Saturday
3am: 38.8C
8 panadols within 20 hours.
Saw a doc at 1100
Prescribed lozenges and antibiotics. obviously he's oblivious to my situation.
2100: 39.2C. Too hot. Went into ice bath. Bath -tub filled with ice. Moaning and groaning as ice water is repeatedly poured over thy's head and body. very very cold.
2130: 38.1C. Still hot. Throat hurts like hell still. Think the doc doesn't know what is the meaning of a throat infection.
Sunday
Breakfast: Kwayteow soup.
Lunch:porridge with nothing in it.
Dinner: sushi(6)
Now. Throat hurts like hell. even swallowing my own saliva hurts. Ulcers seem to grow on the walls of my throat. Fever isn't subsiding. Someone help me!
posted by gary @ 4:33 PM
finally finished my geog assignment.sighz. more econs to do. she's moving so fast. but she says all of these is good for us. I'm sure.
love ya dear. muack!
posted by gary @ 9:12 PM
today's gonna be 2 months, 2 weeks and 2 days for me and her.
i tend to think alot.
posted by gary @ 8:51 PM
School life is full of ups and downs. So many stuff happened today in school. Don't ask me what, i won't tell. just a smile willl suffice? i don't know. i'm so unsure.
Talking about uncertainty, sometimes i feel that some people likes my darling. But i always dismiss those thoughts, they are stupid aren't they? They won't try to be a third party right? ya. so, the thoughts are stupid. argh, the things i think of when i'm tired and bored.
Oh, shu's art pieces are very nice! i love them.
posted by gary @ 8:52 PM
tomorrow will be a warm day. summer's here guys. Get your thongs and g strings out! haha.. just a joke! shite. i'm sweating like mad and i've already taken 4 baths today. haha...
posted by gary @ 7:10 PM
ah. the much awaited sense of relief. cheerleading is over.
its a brand new week.
a brand new love.
is it?
i mean. i love you.
posted by gary @ 10:21 PM
the past week has been hard on me. especially today.
i waited from 4 to 830. i dun mind.
never minded waiting. cos, waiting 8 years is more than 8 hours.
i admit that i always want you to be able to sacrifice if i can, and you should do the same if i decide to sacrifice. its painful when i sacrifice and you just sacrificed me. for your house.
i don't mind. i understand. you love your house. i never blamed you.
i didn't join cheerleading this year because of you. i rejected julia, cherie. All i had to do it cos i thought i can spend more time with you if i don't join. And there is less contact with girls. I feel that contact with girls should be as minimal as possible. i know of "accidents" that happen during practice or the manhandling of the girl.
But, you joined. When i saw you today and the way you were handled, i know that even if you were being touched somewhere, you would take it to be accidental. It might be, it might be not. They are guys, i am a guy. You haven't heard what guys say about girls in the toilet. Today, my heart just tore apart when you fell down countless times. The guys being diagnosed with the incapability of co-ordination of brain and hands. I understand i may be conventional, i am.
By the time you read this, cheerleading would have been over and this blown off. i'm really waiting for the day where you can sacrifice your time, yourself or what, for me, like what i have been doing these times for you.
i love you.
posted by gary @ 10:44 PM
oh... i cut my hair too! its short now!! yeah~~ so much cooler... not so much hair le.. haha..
posted by gary @ 8:43 PM
the pain she dealt out to me was so immense that i'm sad.
Love, if I weep it will not matter,
And if you laugh I shall not care;
Foolish am I to think about it,
But it is good to feel you there.
Love, in my sleep I dreamed of waking,
White and awful the moonlight reached
Over the floor, and somewhere, somewhere
There was a shutter loose- it screeched!
Swung in the wind- and no wind blowing-
I was afraid and turned to you,
Put out my hand to you for comfort-
And you were gone! Cold as the dew,
Under my hand the moonlight lay!
Love, if you laughI shall not care,
But if I weep it will not matter-
Ah, it is good to feel you there.
posted by gary @ 10:36 PM
