sweet misery: 11/01/2004

Saturday, November 27, 2004

see wat see!

my son

my wifey doing housework.

our son.

her son

our different hair.

and my hair now

pink shades!

side profile

the ah beng

moi ah lian

my piggy

us at khatib.

holidays are here!

here are shots taken in the hols!

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

Today was such a wierd day.

i didn't know whether to celebrate or sigh in despair.

i didn't know if things were ending here or i had to start my 2nd year all over again.

Its a different feeling from the PSLE and O levels. i felt i gained freedom then. now, my baggage seems to have gotten heavier.

I was at the bbq. amy was describing the 'Paul Frank Band'. Maybe this will be one of the last times i will sit around with them, laughing with my pals shu and chris. Maybe this will be the last in my life i'll see indran. 2 years of junior college was too fast. way too fast.

i've never treasured my friends. i've always made fun at them. Always thinking of what to make fun of them tomorrow.

today, i couldn't think of any tomorrow.

as i took out my collar pin from my school uniform and my belt, there was this sadness in me. that was the last time i'm wearing that uniform, and that is the last time i am tucking my shirt into my belt. No more uniform checks, no more flurry of girls putting on belts, no more nice classmates, no more fabulous odacians, no more teachers i like.

i miss miss g. i love her lit lessons. though sometimes i get a bit bored by her jokes, she says it really funnily. i miss miss thiang. i miss lots of people now.

shu was telling me, when he finished his PSLE, the invigilator said "and now you are free" but he failed to think he had 6 more years to go and 2 more major exams to go. i don't like the idea of being free. studying is better.

i used to hate to study. i still do. but i love the idea of going to school to see my friends, sit in the canteen/study area/go to the loo and splash water on people in the cubicle,/hanging out in the odac room/hanging out in the classroom, everything is nostalgic. (i don't miss the lessons though)

after the road traffic accident, i've learnt to be more paranoid. i really love everyone of you. i try to make your day by making you laugh. and i hope i did brighten up your days. Everyone of us will be leading our own lives now. 5 years down the road, some of us will be famous, some of us will be losers.

"people now do not judge by the essential soundness but by the accidental outcomes." - jude the obscure

Friday, November 19, 2004

Hues of grey in my head,
the breeze sprawls itself over my falling tears,
the green trees standing in oblivion,
the birds sucking nectar.

the windmill is just ahead,
in circles, it rotates,
a souless mind, a souless head,
nothing less, to be dead.

hues of grey not disappearing,
there is no sunset.

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

do everything you've ever dreamed of,
go take an airplane and imagine you're a bird,
take a ship and imagine you're a fish,
sit in a car and imagine you're an F1 driver,
take a toy gun and pretend you from SWAT.

how many times can we do this?
we've done it once,
twice,
perhaps one time too many.

but,
how many times are we going to come this way once?

treasure your day,
daydream sometimes,
remember about your family,
love your friends.

do not be mean,
donate generously,
you never know when you need it.

and let those dreams,

remain as dreams.

do no waste your time fulfilling impossible stuff.
its good enough you dreamt yourself doing it.

its good enough.

remember,

we come this way only once.

inspired by the young kid who my mum no more takes care of. a cute boy who stayed here from less than a year till now, 4 years old and counting.

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

my gosh. time passes so fast.. its like by the time u finish reading this line, the big 'A's are already gone.

Sunday, November 14, 2004

i love my darling dearie sweetie cutie bao bei!!!

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

the best thing in the exam is not to panic.

how not to panic?

according to research, the best thing is to look at one question at a time and not scan through the whole booklet as per doing so, the testee will be subconsciously affected by his predetermined concept of the exam.

therefore, just go through section by section.

and breathe.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

People are joyous on creation/beginnings.. and sad on deaths/parting/ending.

and its only during exams when we are sad on starting and exuberant on ending.

oh yeah. excite me.

Monday, November 08, 2004

its just 16 more days.

looking back,

even if i had 16 years,

i'd still screw up.

Saturday, November 06, 2004

What is unspoken speaks the greatest volume.

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Look at the flowers- smell them,
hear the bees- dance with them,
touch the cat - hear it purr,
let the dog - lick.
Give up your seat to the elderly.
Do not litter.
Give when you can.

run for your lives.

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

take cover for the exam cops are coming

Monday, November 01, 2004

And now, all that's left,

is just you and me.

walking home.

sweet misery